I always said that the reason I was so passionate about teaching and practising Tantra was so I could create a way to celebrate its teachings and alter western societies negative views and opinions on what it is . I was sooooo committed to making sure that we didnt make tantra = sex.
As I have said many times, it is so much more than that. It is life and love and surrender and truth and movement and breath and lifestyle and heart just to mention a small amount of what tantra is to me.
I think I have been a little too attached to some kind of outcome...........
I recently had a prospective client email me, over several weeks, saying he was wanting to make an appointment. He continued to email me and ask questions, make judgements and statements and very carefully and articulately word comments so as not to sound legally threatening. I eventually listened to my intuition and refused to see him.
I know it was the right thing to do, however it has caused me much distress. Not long after receiving this persons last email, my signs at the front of the centre were smashed to pieces and I had council knocking on my door and pushing to close me down. There are no coincidences and although i dont know who this person is, I do know he has my address, phone numbers, email address and access to this blog.
It has been ever present over this period that everything happens for a reason. I have had many thoughts about this man and what i hope happens to him and not all of them pleasant. I have had thoughts about leaving the area, moving house and business, ending my blog and changing all of my addresses including my email, however if I did that, it would be acting out of fear and i wont be taken there by anyone.
I stand proud of what i do and who i am, of what i stand for and my passion.
Something amazing is about to happen that would not have been possible if this person had not done and said and acted like he did.
So i say Thank you to him
lesson learned
